Really Bad Week

This week has been very hard. I have not done a single cardio session since Monday. My mood has gone steadily downhill. To top it off, I smoked a hookah yesterday and polished off half a bottle of mead and a bit of port. If it weren’t for scheduled sessions with my trainer, I think this would be enough of a crisis to crush my will to continue and would be the point where I usually fall off of any exercise I start.

Trying to see changes in my body is like watching a glacier melt. Global warming is happening and the rate they melt is faster almost every day but the changes are still so slow that the changes you do see seem almost illusory. My body is changing though, just as the glaciers are melting. And global warming is an apt description of the pace of change as I don’t think changes could happen any faster. I’m eating every 3 hours, keeping my metabolism high. Usually, I am doing cardio at medium to high intensity 4-6 times a week for 40-60 minutes. I’m strength training 3 times a week with a trainer. My portion sizes when I eat are way down. I am not getting any simple carbs like high fructose corn syrup, white rice and non-whole grain flours. And I appear to be losing about 3 lbs a week which seems insanely fast but the slowly appearing definition of muscle suggests it is all being lost in the right places. But still, the tire rolls on and I’m not completely happy when I look in the mirror.

Without my trainer Laura’s help and support, I don’t think I could keep this up. Still, it seems every session I push harder, ignore a little bit more pain and hard breathing and accelerate my pace. And I am getting stronger and more fit. It took 15 years to get in this miserable condition, but maybe it will only take 1/10th of that to get out.

As a mental aid to keep up my will for the drastic changes I have made, I’m going to bleach my hair blond. It is the most drastic appearance change I can think of to shake me up and I’ve really wanted to do it for years. I will try to get before and after pictures posted so those few of you who are curious can see what it looks like.

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